Monday, May 30, 2011
It's okay if you like Matt Smith. I really have nothing personal against him. I just don't like him as the Doctor. You can love him if you like. Everyone has their own opinion. Rock on!
To me Matt Smith is gangly, bumbling, and isn't really clever. I know the Doctor is a bit eccentric but Matt's portrayal just doesn't cut it with me.
Then there's Amy. Sure she's a pretty companion but how many expressions does she have? Is she really scared?? Is she really feeling anything??? Does she need a poo?? Hmmmm?? I suppose it really doesn't matter at all.
Anyway, Matt Smith...He never watched Doctor Who before he was cast in the role of the Doctor. He's not as attractive as David Tennant. I hate bow ties and I'm not overly fond of Fez's. I wish he would go away. Yes, that's right..I wish he would disappear, vanish, regenerate, do whatever it takes to make him skee-daddle and take Amy with him. We can keep Rory. He's ok. He's just death prone.
Bring back the genius that is Russell T. Davies!!
Sunday, May 1, 2011
I suffer from severe depression. I can not hide it or fake it anymore. It is what it is. I've tried to be strong and to resist it but it's taken over.
I was diagnosed with depression back in the late 90's. I took antidepressants and things seemed to get better but I did not follow through. I suppose I was ashamed.
Over the years it has gotten worse. It has affected me in my work life and it was probably a factor into me losing my last 2 jobs. Now I'm unemployed and that doesn't help one bit.
I have no energy. I'm constantly fatigued. I don't want to do anything. I sleep too much. I eat too much. I hate myself but I'm not suicidal. I don't want to die. Although it would probably be better off on my family if I did.
I love my dog Rex more than anything. If it weren't for him I'd probably never get out of bed.
I have no money, no job, no health insurance. My family will just scoff at me if I confide in them. No one believes me. I'm just marked as lazy.
Something has got to change.