I suffer from severe depression. I can not hide it or fake it anymore. It is what it is. I've tried to be strong and to resist it but it's taken over.
I was diagnosed with depression back in the late 90's. I took antidepressants and things seemed to get better but I did not follow through. I suppose I was ashamed.
Over the years it has gotten worse. It has affected me in my work life and it was probably a factor into me losing my last 2 jobs. Now I'm unemployed and that doesn't help one bit.
I have no energy. I'm constantly fatigued. I don't want to do anything. I sleep too much. I eat too much. I hate myself but I'm not suicidal. I don't want to die. Although it would probably be better off on my family if I did.
I love my dog Rex more than anything. If it weren't for him I'd probably never get out of bed.
I have no money, no job, no health insurance. My family will just scoff at me if I confide in them. No one believes me. I'm just marked as lazy.
Something has got to change.
go to an ER, they will help you.
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ReplyDeleteI believe you. I wish I could give you a magic answer. Maybe there are clinical studies that you can take part in, or perhaps a physician in your area that might take you on without payment.
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