Pain

I never in a million years thought I'd be what I am today. Scared, alone, jobless, depressed. I don't like myself very much, not that I ever did. I've reached an all time high of self-loathing. I've gained so much weight. I disgust myself. I comfort eat. I have no health or dental insurance. I need to see a dentist but cant. I have no motivation. I cant look into a mirror without cringing. I am ashamed.